Harper's going to be 10 months old next week. It's hard for me to believe that she's going be a year in 2 months. She makes me so happy. I love being a mommy. I love watching her and Nick interact. She definitely is a daddy's girl already. I am so glad that he is able to be home with her most days after work...and I'm even more happy that he's out of active duty navy!
But with that being said, I'm still holding a lot of anger towards his last boat. I can't believe someone could tell someone who was more or less devastated that he was missing his daughter's birth.... that they DON'T DESERVE to be home for the birth of the child. God, I am so flipping mad still. I want to punch people in the face. I want them to miss the most important day of their life. I am so angry still and I don't know how to not be angry about it. I know Nick wasn't a super sailor...but he got in trouble ONE time...and it was dismissed and I've seen people do stupider shit and they didn't have to miss their child's birth....
So, here I am 10 months later. Still pissed. Still angry. Still Sad.....but I know I am lucky. I just wish that I could let go of the anger.
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