Randoms

Twenty four. That's how old I am now. I feel as though I've aged rather quickly. I might be twenty four, but I feel old and frumpy like a 45 year old woman. Birthday has come and gone.. Was pretty quiet, and a little stressful. Harper ran a fever for 4 days and we had to take her into the doctor on my birthday!! ( Thank you for weekend hours!) They did a test and checked her ears, and decided it was something viral. It was still pretty stressful to watch your active 7.5 month old go from crawling around and getting into everything to laying in your lap and just wanting to cuddle ALL day. Thankfully, she's been fever free for 24 hours and is almost 100% completely back to normal. She's still a bit cranky, but I figure I would be too if I was sick for four days. Hell, I'm a bit cranky too but I think that is due to my lack of sleep.

House hunting is going not so well. It's really a pain in the ass. Nick and I both know what we want and its pretty much the opposite of each other. We have to let the apartment know in 11 days whether or not we are staying here, otherwise we are stuck until at least June 15th. Its kind of stressful. I just want the perfect house for us to show up.

Classes start on Monday. This is my second to last semester and it's going to completely kick my ass. My courses are as follows Modern Sociological Theory(has potential to be my favorite. , Art History: Modern Painting from 1850-1900(eh), Introduction Ocean Sciences (not my cup of tea--but at least its an introduction!), World Society (meh) , and History of Sociological Theory(The sociology major in me should be excited, but as an online class i can guarantee it will be BORING!). It will be an interesting semester that is for sure. I'm aiming for a 4.0 this year. It's one of my goals for the year. However, we'll have to see. Between Harper, house hunting, moving, school, being a "housewife" (which I might add, I suck at), its likely that I won't sleep very much.

Today while driving, I saw a bumper that said "Abort Obama, Not Babies". I was disgusted for so many reasons. Lets begin with the fact that I HATE abortion bumper stickers and abortion billboards. Its fine if you don't believe in it, I get it. I'm not saying its right, or its wrong...but I firmly believe in a woman's right to choose. You don't know the circumstances so mind your own damn business. Secondly, he's been office for one year. He's not a freakin' magician, he can't make all the problems go away with the snap of his fingers. Its going to take some time. I guess its just me but I freaking hate stupid bumper stickers. Especially ones that voice your opinion or as stupid as the one i saw that today. So that's my rant for today.

Going Private//What ifs?

I'm making my blog private... Plenty of reasons BUT the main reasons are: I do not want everyone one on the interwebz to be able to read what I've got to say and I want to be able to put pictures up. Since having Harper, I've gotten kind of paranoid about that and call me, petty, but there are some people who deserve to know NOTHING about me or see pictures of my baby! My Facebook is completely private if your not my friend, so all you can see is my profile picture.
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I don't regret the life I've chosen, but I do think about the what ifs every once in a while. What if things had been that way or maybe this way, ya know? I guess, mainly it's because I'm not a big fan of change, but I didn't last long at Mizzou. I hated Washington at first and now I'm not a huge fan of Wisconsin. It was hard to live in Washington and leave all my friends back in Columbia/St. Louis. It was hard to leave Washington and leave all my new friends. I became so close with so many people. It's easy to feel forgotten, especially when you basically have no life. What if I had stayed at Mizzou though? Where would my life be? It would be a lot different, I'd probably be in the Air Force which means the life I have now wouldn't exist. I wouldn't be getting ready to celebrate four years of being married with Nick and I wouldn't have Harper. I probably wouldn't be up to my eyeballs in student loans. I probably wouldn't have met people like Joline, Micah, Steph, Jamie and all the other people. I probably wouldn't be house hunting. I probably wouldn't be married. I probably wouldn't be slightly ( okay A LOT ) out of shape. I probably wouldn't happy, either. So despite all the of that, I'm glad my life has turned out the way it has. I'm happy that I left the St. Louis area. I'm glad I had to deal with the patrols, because I appreciate Nick a lot more. I'm glad that I got to experience life. Most of all, I'm glad my life has turned out the way it has.

Update on my list:

So I am not that computer savvy, so you'll have to excuse the repeats that are within the list. Here's my goals and whats been accomplished so far. :)

1. Lose 25lbs
2. Run/walk a 5k.
3. Join some kind of exercise class/play group/moms group so that Harper and I can make friends. ((Done: Harper and I start mommy and me swimming lessons the first week of january!!)
4. Buy a house
5. Graduate
6. Decide what I want to do when I "grow up"
7. Decide on grad school--determine where I want to go.
8. Buy new living room furniture.
9. Start saving for my super fancy formal dining room.
10. Paint all the rooms after #4 is accomplished. Make Harper’s room "hers"
11. Get a park membership.
12. Try to get a weekend away with Nick
13. Be done Christmas shopping by December 10, 2010.
14. Plan our 5 year anniversary/honeymoon trip for 2011
15. Start a couple more savings accounts.
16. Walk/run 2 or 3 times a week with Harper
17. Get a membership to the County Park.
18. Digi-scrap or hand scrap Harper's first year of life.
19. Get rid of all clothes I haven't worn in over a year.
20. Continue to go the library--read 15 books for fun this year. (aiming very low due to heavy course load @ school) book 1 (1/2/09)
21. 4.0 for school
22. Send a 'thinking of you' card to an unexpecting friend each month
23. Set a routine/schedule and stick to it.
24. Update my blog a couple times a month.
25. Finish baby blankets I started before I was even pregnant with Harper.
26. learn to crochet
27. Crochet a baby blanket.
28. Stop using plastic/paper bags at grocery store...use my eco-friendly reusable bags.
29. Start paying on student loans.
30. If #4 is accomplished, plant flowers and landscape the house.
31. Cook one new meal every 2 weeks
32. Volunteer somewhere
33. Grow my hair out to at least
34. Do one thing for myself a month
35. Encourage and support Nick's half marathon/marathon dreams.
36. Work on being a better wife.
37. Plan a surprise for Nick and don't tell him about it.
38. Send a couple of care packages to our friends stationed overseas.
39. Take Harper to story time at least once a month.
40. Register to vote in Wisconsin.
41. Get my tattoo fixed
42. Go to a cardinals game in Milwaukee
43. Go to a Cardinals game in St. Louis
44. Take Harper to St. Louis to visit at least 3 times.
45. Go to Chicago for the weekend.
46. If Green Bay plays in St. Louis, buy Nick tickets to see them play.
47. Actually use my calendar and planner!
48. Find a hobby for Nick and I do together.
49. Take a class for fun.